Monday, June 21, 2010


I am done with you.

The venom on the innocent fangs of a black widow; you sink deep, numbing, and quickly spreading like a vicious lie.

A sign on the marquee advertises the vacancy of the room you once occupied.

"Oh, save the family race!", you cry. While orphans weep at the feet of strangers. You eat their candy.

An abomination to the fiery waters that trickle through hell itself. Your tongue designed of paper-cuts, you speak to the weak.

I tell you this now. I am done with you.

Vomiting thorns on the path of the righteous, they can build bridges over your jointed dance of spite and hate.

I am done with you.


Friday, June 18, 2010

Pulling Down Walls

I don't wear a watch because I don't want to be told what to do. Really. Thats why I stopped wearing one. If I honestly believed that TIME might actually hold healing properties, I might have kept that Casio Calculator Watch I used to wear back in the 4th grade.

Sadly, I think time might actually be the culprit in infecting a wound. I don't have a lot of proof for this, but I do have a team of researchers working on this around the clock. I'll let you know as soon as they publish their findings.


So, it's been 6 weeks since I have seen my wife and kids. It kills me. This is just something I must deal with while we work our plan to re-unite. I have been taken in by my new family. I am a brother. I am an Uncle. I am loved as I love them. I could not be more blessed than I am today.

But... still...

I am struggling with a few friendships that I seem to have lost. I'm always gaining new friendships, which is always a very amazing thing. Each friend wanting to know more about me and me about them. The friends that stick with me are the ones that do not judge me. The ones that accept me for who I am, what I do, and where I want to be. I also accept them, love them, and support them for who they are and where they want to go with their lives.

Is it ever too late to fix a friendship? I hope not. There are a few that I plan on trying to mend over time. The new question has become not if 'I' want these friendships to be fixed, but if 'THEY' want these friendships fixed. I mean, if I am not worth it to them, then why should I even try? I've left it up to time for the past year, but for some reason, time hasn't done anything other than cause more problems. Another question is 'why am I the one that makes the attempts in fixing things always?' I mean, why is it always 'my' job to fix things? Maybe because 'THEY' don't want things fixed. I guess I can live with that. If I only knew what truly caused some of these disasters, I would have found a way to avoid them from happening. But that is neither here nor there.

What I do know is that I miss a couple of people that I used to be close with. That I still care about. That I still wish good things for. That I still love. I miss them.

I hope that the walls that have been built between us are not solid. That they were created by miscommunications, misunderstandings, and misguided letters, words, and phrases. If the ill will that has been presented is intentional, then I will have to just live with that.

But if these walls are real.

I can only pray they are made from paper.


Friday, June 4, 2010

A new breed of evil.

What is evil?

I think we all know what evil is without having to run over to and look it up, but if you really must, I'll wait for you here while you run that little errand. *whistles while waiting* ... Oh, you're back? Excellent. See, I told you, you already knew what the meaning of evil was. It's pretty simple.

What do I hate about evil the most? Well, besides it being the thing that turns a Saturday into a Monday... is that evil is never obvious. You never really see it coming. It is powerful, and if it gets a hold of you in any way, shape, or form, it has the ability to mess with your reasoning and justifies itself as a way of being righteous.

Something else to think about is this. Evil wouldn't exist without us; human nature. IF there were no humans on this planet, there would be no evil. Now, a lot of you are saying, sure there would. Animals would kill each other out of anger, hunger, and boredom. I'm not going to argue with you. All I have to do is simply read the definition of evil at to see the foundation of this term refers to the actions of mankind's morality and character... and if its not due to that, its due to the actions and creations of mankind, so in a round-a-bout way, evil wouldn't exist if we weren't here. *inserts "In My Humble Opinion" here to avoid bored paralegals*

Us humans are sneaky bastards too. We spend a lot of time manipulating the threads of life in order to justify our evil actions. And with newer technology at our finger-tips we are becoming more and more powerful when we chose to act on an evil chord. Yes. We are truly thinking ahead and premeditating our evil ways using every means possible to have a scapegoat or better yet, someone ELSE to blame.

We make a bold statement on the internet, then back peddle saying it was a misunderstanding or that if you carefully read the wording, they weren't actually trying to say 'this' or 'that' and that they are the victim. The innocent one. That their actions weren't evil or malicious at all.

Yes, we have become quite creative by setting up a paper trail of false alibis and places and people to point at while we perform our amazing feat of evil. Yes, evil. Harmful Conduct, Moral, Behavior, Intentions and Ways. And after the trick is performed, the distraction... "I didn't mean to hurt you, see my paper trail of dove feathers.", "I am innocent", they claim. "I am a victim."

These online attacks are pre-meditated and it takes quite the sleuth to get down to the bottom of things and find the truth. Whether their actions are instigated by jealousy, self-righteousness, or narcissism, the truth can be found if you spend the time and study the actions of every individual in the party.

Unfortunately, we don't want to spend the time working to find the truth. Especially with this new form of evil in the social networks that make up only a fraction of what our reality really is. The fact that you are still reading THIS blog in its entirity would certainly amaze me in our 'Microwave Generation' world of self-taught scholars.

So, evil has a new face. It is more clever than ever. It leads you down fingers of premeditated misinformation. It sets up the scene ahead of time with a prologue to keep you distracted while the real evil act is in play. And by the time it is over, we are so confused, that we just give up, let it go and apathetically walk past the real victim laying on the sidewalk.

It's not that we don't care. It's that we just don't have the time to deal with this new form of evil.

Not until it happens to you.

Then it hurts.